I had a dream......

Last night I dreamt that Abah Didi and Pah Halim came over to my place. The dream seemed so real. In the dream, I confided in him saying that I am not strong enough to overcome my weaknesses....he said he was was worried for me....cos I have spend my time on football and badminton...he said we need to prepare for rainy weather...like we saved in a bank...but how much have I saved for the life after??

Don't know whether it was a real message from him, or it was just a normal dream...but....it seemed so real...and he is reminding me of something...

Forgive me Allah...for I have sinned...guide me to become one of your servants that you bless with your Grace and Compassion...

Birthday......sigh

Today is my 33rd birthday and it made me thinking....I am 33 and I have nothing to show for. God has given me a lot of His blessings, yet I fail to serve him as a humble servant. God has shown me the path to be a righteous man, yet I spent my time being a sinner. What is the point of having to know Abah Didi, Kiyai Halim, Ustaz Chodri and Ustaz Abu Syahri when I choose to spent my life being a sinner. Things must change. I have to change. There must be a reason why I was chosen to get to know all these people. And its definitely not to continue to being a sinner. Forgive me Allah for I have sinned.

"Sesungguhnya dunia ini adalah syurga orang-orang kafir, dan neraka bagi orang-orang mukmin."

Arrival of Pak Cecep

I spoke to Zuraimi no the phone yesterday...was informed that Pak Halim would be in Singapore today....Kiayi Halim Musaddad....sigh....i don't think i deserve to be in the midst of these good people...forgive me Allah for I have sinned....