Birthday......sigh

Today is my 33rd birthday and it made me thinking....I am 33 and I have nothing to show for. God has given me a lot of His blessings, yet I fail to serve him as a humble servant. God has shown me the path to be a righteous man, yet I spent my time being a sinner. What is the point of having to know Abah Didi, Kiyai Halim, Ustaz Chodri and Ustaz Abu Syahri when I choose to spent my life being a sinner. Things must change. I have to change. There must be a reason why I was chosen to get to know all these people. And its definitely not to continue to being a sinner. Forgive me Allah for I have sinned.

"Sesungguhnya dunia ini adalah syurga orang-orang kafir, dan neraka bagi orang-orang mukmin."